Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Mental illness sucks

It sucks to watch somebody you care about being destroyed, and know that there really isn't a damned thing you can do about it. It sucks to realize that you need to remove yourself emotionally so that you will be ready to deal with the things you'll need to deal with if they kill themselves, which they've threatened to do not once, but multiple, multiple times. It really sucks when you've watched the person honestly try to get better, and nothing seems to help.

It just sucks.

11 comments:

Orange said...

For your kids' sake, I hope it's not your ex you're talking about here. Whoever it is, I'm sorry you're hurting.

jo(e) said...

(o)

B.E.C.K. said...

Hmm. Just...hmm. Keep yourself and the kids safe. I'll be thinking of you.

Psycho Kitty said...

Orange: Sadly, it is.

Clementine said...

I'm really sorry, PK. Please know that we're thinking of you and sending y'all lots of love.

Belle said...

Yes, it sucks. So be open with your kids so they know what's going on (as much as they need to) and that they also know that it's nothing for them to be ashamed of.

Canada said...

I'm so sorry you're in this situation (again). Belle has the right idea. Hang in there.

urbanmuse said...

Found ya! Searched through the sieve that is my brain these days, tried various possibilities, and finally remembered your addie! :)

So much catching up to do!

Scrivener said...

(o)

Jessica said...

Yes...it does.

Hugs to you, sweetie - and lots of loving thoughts.

muse said...

Can you stop watching?

I.e., can you keep your contacts with him to a very bare minimum?

You can't help, being around won't change a thing, so can you do something to help yourself? (minimizing contacts to a bare minimum)

I know it's not as "easy" as it was for me, since there is a kid involved, but is there any way you can "detach" yourself, and only deal with him for whatever contacts are needed/desired between him and your kid?

I'm not trying to be cruel or insensitive, just saying: if it's at all doable, it wouldn't be a bad thing to consider (I mean, not a "bad person's thoughts" kinda deal). Just self-preservation, and a way to get some much deserved peace of mind.

Anyway, I'm sorry if this is not what you need (sometimes I deal with problems like a guy: I try to find solutions instead of just shutting up and listening).

*big hugs*